An open letter to the people of Ferguson

Dear Ferguson,

I am writing this because I want you to know how the rest of the country feels. See we watch on television every day now for months about the protesting and violence that you are doing to your town. Before Mike Brown got killed we had no idea about you. Just like any small town on the map- Most of us do not know you exist until something bad happens. And now you are all over the news with looting , violence and protestors who may or may not live in your community and you probably do not even know until all of this started. I am not saying that we as a country do not care. We do. We understand what is going on. But WE do not have to live there. We are in our homes during this time and we do not see this on the streets of our neighborhoods. See this is where I as a human being have an issue. You say that the violent acts of one man lead to the death of an unarmed young man. But yet you answer the violence with violence. I watched the video of the mother and her anger after the decision was made. I understand her anger. Where I have my son and can still hug him and see him continue his life. I do have a heart. And that heart angers me. No child should be shot no matter what race they are .. He was a child.. It is not right. But this story has flooded the news and internet for months and honestly it should have died down by now. Have you even noticed that another child was gunned down.. Another African American child- A 12 year old who was killed because he had an airsoft gun? Nope you are too busy destroying your city .. Too busy being self absorbed with the killing of a person who stole from a store and the confronted and cop. Well you are not the only city in the country that has kids dying daily over things they themselves did not provoke. You just do all the looting and violence and think you are going to change things. Well check this out… Not all protest need to be violent. I am sure your town has heard of Trayvon Martin… Well did any of you see his family and people cause as much destruction as you have? NO.. You saw the community rally behind them peacefully. You saw the world stand up after the verdict and try to make change without the violence that took his life. Yet the nation had one thing in mind… Start the discussion about the change that needs to happen. You may not know what you look like but the hatred you are doing throughout the community is showing the young people in your community that violence is the answer when you do not get the response you want. That will teach us right? So we show our kids that this is how we carry ourselves and it is okay to do all of this.. Wow can you imagine how they see us? You are smashing businesses , setting police cars on fire, beating each other, stealing, destroying people’s lives all in the name of what really? I would be ashamed to be setting the example for your kids that this is the way you get what you want. Well guess what …. IT IS NOT… Teach your kids that yes there are people in this world who do bad things but to be the change needed do not stoop to the level of the people who are causing it. Do something about it that would actually help be the change. The world we live in is a violent world. But you gain nothing by being what is wrong with this world. There are other ways to fight the injustice .. There are other ways to be heard.. You now after all of this violence what have you accomplished? Is Mike Brown alive now? Is the cop in jail? No neither of those things has taken place. And it never will. So why continue to set fire to your community and destroy what people have worked so hard to build when you get no outcome that you desire? Instead of doing all the negative that you are doing.. Fight to make sure that no other mother will have to cry about losing her child to violence. Teach our younger generation that getting an education and fighting the injustice they see now by becoming pillars of the community.. Be the change our children need.. Our children no matter what race learn from the actions of us.. So if we are to be the example.. Then what kind of world do we leave for our children? You want to be mad.. You want to act a fool that’s is on you completely but two wrongs do not make a right and all the damage you are doing to your own community.. You are leaving your children nothing… I pray that things will change and you will find peace out of this.. But yelling to “burn this motherfucker down” is not the way you get change..

Another mother that is ashamed to know we are still children ourselves

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Matters of the heart

I have never been the girl that was good at anything remotely looking like a relationship. Did not matter if it were a man or woman. Still never got the gist of it. Got married- that didn’t work. Dated women- that did not work. Turned feelings off and became cold- that did not work either. And yet here I sit in my room and have a constant thought go through my head- A thought that should have left years ago but has not. See I have come to the realization that I am in love. Funny to hear me say that but I think it is true. For a few years now there has been one constant person my heart and my mind keep coming too. And to no avail I can not shake it. I have always heard that if you constantly think of someone then they are supposed to be there. I do not have the balls I guess to even let this person know how I feel. I am pretty blunt about everything else . But when it comes to matters of the heart.. I do not know how to do it. I had someone ask me why I do not have a significant other. And here and there I have given bullshit answers to that question. Of course it is just to dodge the real question that I ask myself. Until today- I have a feeling it may have come too late.. I think the person that I am in love with has gotten married and for me that means hands off. Drop the feelings and never look back . I do not know for sure but I just feel like it is true. I have so many people tell me how beautiful I am and honestly I do not see it. And all I can think about is one week of my life that was spent with the most amazing person and just how that made me feel. I mean granted I am probably not good enough for them because we grew up different lives. But there is not a second of the day that they do not cross my mind. It is kind of like even though we are far apart they are always near me. I just can’t do it.
I sit here and see a person who like I said earlier isn’t perfect. Does not have the perfect body or life.. And yet all I can think about is them. When I talk about them my whole demeanor changes and I feel like I could do anything. Yet there is this huge wall up and I am not sure if it is me or them. But if I could tell this person just how I feel I guess I would say that.. No matter how far apart we are from each other they are the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing I think about at night. I look at the sky when I take my walks and I wonder if by chance they are thinking about me. How I would do anything for them. Even walk away if it meant they could be happy. When I tell them I love them.. It is not words .. It comes from every fiber of my being. Yet those dreams may have to be just that… Dreams.. And now I am faced with not saying a word and walking away . I do not know if I should cry and get it out.. Or just hell I don’t know… I feel so dumb for feeling this way…

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Greensboro city employee charged in hotel assault, police say attack not hate crime

I really get angered when they say things like this… No one really knows what happened and for the city to just act like it was two guys fighting.. Is wrong… Pray that Mr. White heals quickly ….

GREENSBORO, N.C. — A good-looking young stranger in a gay bar is going to draw some attention, Chemistry Nightclub owner Drew Wofford said Thursday, according to the Greensboro News & Record.

Garry Joseph Gupton, a 26-year-old Greensboro city employee, spent several hours flirting with drag queens Saturday night, and hooked up with a regular at the bar, 46-year-old Stephen Patrick White.

Then, Wofford said, the two left together and went to a hotel. By dawn, one man was critically injured and the other was in jail.

Police have said that a fire broke out in the hotel room the men shared. White was hospitalized with critical burn injuries and Gupton has been charged with assault with a deadly weapon with intent to kill.

About 4:30 a.m. Sunday, police and firefighters raced to Battleground Inn, 1517 W. Wendover Terrace. When authorities arrived, they found flames and smoke pouring from a fourth-floor…

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Facing Death

Yesterday was the wake of a friend I lost last week. I did not go. It is so hard to see that right now. I have been to many funerals but here lately I have not wanted to go. I know that it is something I will face myself one day. But I cant seem to bring myself to do so. See since I have been sick and the unfortunate accident that happened going on 7 years ago. I have not been able to bring myself to seeing a dead body. I am not sure if I am scared or I am not sure how I will react. But either way I am not willing to see how I will react. I feel like I have seen enough death for one lifetime and I feel like I do not know what to say about it. I did not know him half as well as I should and I granted did not pretend that we were close. I feel bad for not going to pay respects but I feel like I can make my peace with him no matter where I am. Becca and James came by and said no one really came. I felt bad about that but like I said I never faked it. Why do we do that? When someone dies.. there are people who believe if they act a certain way people will react. But it is all a lie. A sham… So why is it widely used when one dies. I just do not get it…

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Body found near creek in Alamance County; deputies are investigating

So sad… Praying for all involved… Hope they find the answers they need…

ALAMANCE COUNTY, N.C. — Some children found a body Sunday afternoon near a creek in Mebane, according to the Alamance County Sheriff’s Office.

Officials said the body was taken to the morgue. The identity has not been released.

Circumstances surrounding the incident and other details have not been released.


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Life and Death…. Just how it really is…

Earlier tonight I found out a friend of mine passed away. At first I was shocked at the news. I mean we did not talk daily and honestly had not spoke in awhile but I did consider him a friend. As with any life – there is always death. It is something that none of us can escape. Yet I have noticed over the years that people are not always the nicest people while we are alive yet in death everyone is so nice after they hear the news. Hell I am at fault as well. But I never had a bad thing to say about this person. Yet as I am looking through my newsfeed on Facebook I am reading numerous people who while he was alive they talked bad about him, stole from him and treated him different. And now these same people are talking about him as if they were his best friends. Maybe I am just a bitch but the way I look at it is this.. If in life they treated him poorly is treating his death as a tragedy remorse for their actions? Is it all just for an outward appearance so they look like they give a damn. I mean really it happens time and time again. All the things in life we all go through and there are those people who could care less how we feel or what we are going through as long as we do for them when they need it. Granted I am guilty of that in some situations but not this one. I have a gut feeling about the situation which I will not share at this point. But I was never out of the way with him and when he asked for my advice I would give him the best advice I could for the problem he had at the time. I guess I just do not understand people. Maybe I am the issue and the others have it right. Either way I do not know. What I do know is this.. That there are so many times in our lives where we are faced with death and when we hear that someone is sick or has passed we become a nicer version of what we were. We all know that not everyone is going to like us and or agree with us all of the time. But at what point does it become all fake? When we pass do our enemies become our friends because we are no longer here to be mad at? Like I said I just do not know the answer to this question. What I do know is this.. I want to surround myself with people that are going to want to be around me for good reasons while I am alive then to fake mourn my death. I know at this point that I do have a lot of people I know.. But I have very few friends I see. And I know that it is taking every bit of adulthood to hold me back from saying anything. I guess real recognizes real and I am calling a spade a spade. Life and death are the two most permanent things we will ever go through… So why are there so many fakes during both of those times in our lives.. I just pray his family will heal from this and that He is watching over us knowing that he is okay now…

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Hepatitis C Vaccine Safe In Humans, Study Finds


The first human clinical trial of a new hepatitis C vaccine shows that it’s safe in humans, says a study published in the journal Science Translational Medicine. Researchers at the University of Oxford have shown that their first-of-its-kind vaccine for the transmissible liver disease is both effective and safe in an initial safety trial.

An estimated 3.2 million people in the U.S. have chronic hepatitis C, and most do not know they are infected because they don’t have visible or bothersome symptoms. Despite the emergence of effective (but pricey) drugs to treat hepatitis C in the last couple years, there’s still no vaccine. Other types of vaccines spur individuals’ bodies to create antibodies that fight a disease, but that hasn’t worked for hepatitis C. The new potential vaccine induces T cells that target several parts of the virus.

“Our lab spent many years looking at what happens with people…

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Five people being monitored for Ebola in Alamance Co.

Guilford County now Alamance…. I am surrounded by this scary mess…. Praying for ALL INVOLVED!

ALAMANCE COUNTY, N.C. — Five people in Alamance County who recently returned from West Africa are being monitored for Ebola, according to the Alamance County Health Department.

The five people recently traveled to Sierra Leone, Liberia or Guinea, the three countries where there has been an outbreak of Ebola.

“These travelers have no symptoms, have not had contact with an Ebola patient, and are not healthcare workers,” states Health Director Stacie Saunders. “We are monitoring them because of their recent travel from West Africa. In the event that one of these individuals develops symptoms, the Health Department and our community partners will ensure that they are taken quickly and safely to an isolation unit in a predetermined healthcare facility. Our community has been preparing diligently and we continue to do so.”

The health department is complying with federal guidelines that all travelers returning from West Africa must be screened for symptoms.

If there is…

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Random thoughts for today

As I sit here doing what I normally do. I think about the things that have happened here recently. I look through my email account every morning like clock work. I am sure others do that same thing as well. I see email after email about the things going on in the world around me. It is the day after election day here. I got to vote for the first time in a long time yesterday. For me that is big because until just a few weeks ago I didn’t have the right to vote. I am not very political I guess. I mean I watched the ads where people and parties bashed each other. I am not even sure what party I affiliate with really. I do know this.. Most politicians do not tell the truth. I mean really what it boils down to is who has better talk game than the other. Kind of a popularity contest really. And I guess at times the talk game each candidate has really decides the outcome. Like I said not really saying I am republican , democrat, or liberal. Kind of the type who reads between the lines. But I am not one who in any way, shape or form gets upset over an election. Yet as I read different comments on different sites I am beginning to see just how upset people get over elections. And honestly I just don’t get it. While I was voting yesterday I did not think about what someone else would feel about a particular issue or candidate .. I voted for who I as an individual believed was full of less bullshit than the other. That was it. I mean in society today we even though we do not run for office do the same bashing as the candidates do during election time. We are just as full of the bullshit the other 364 days of the year. But yet it all comes down to who you believe on the one day of the year. And then get pissy when who we voted for doesn’t get in. Seeing this through family and friends kind of blows my mind. Before I voted I did look at stats for the candidates. And like I said I feel an ad can tell you a lot. Granted like I said before who has better talk game. Granted not all the people I voted for won. But I do not feel like arguing over who I did or did not vote for.
As I sit and read my emails and see news headlines a few stories stick out to me. Three that kind of make me mad. One is going on in Florida- I mean really arresting people for feeding the homeless. Wow the new low for law enforcement I think. Seeing stories like this make me start to think differently about the police. I mean for years now we have started to see a rise in the law enforcement community misusing their power. And protect and serve is starting to go out the window. Now knowing me you know I am not a big fan of the police in general. Of course I have my reasons but for years I have noticed more and more. Killing of unarmed teenagers, beatings of people on the streets through dash cam videos and news reports daily filling the news up. I am not saying all cops are bad. Because I feel like there are a few that do their job they way they are supposed to. But I think there are glory hounds who want to be the badass cop. Case in point.. Three elderly men are feeding homeless.. And they get arrested for serving food to the people who need it the most. I mean what the hell… So now it is a crime for 90 year old men and pastors to be arrested for taking care of the needy. I could have sworn that I had this was the country that said give me your tired and weak … Hmmm I am perplexed to think that I now live in a world where you can be arrested for doing the right thing but not arrested for the things that are actually crimes. What sense does that make? To me none. Where we live in a society where abusers are glorified on television and movies and those that do the right thing are made look evil. I mean to me it does not make any sense. I am raising my son to not see those things but society is showing and glorifying the negative. I mean if you listen to the news or read a newspaper… The stories that are talked about either have to do with celebrities and things that are not really important.. And the news stories that should be important are not. They are pushed to the way side for meaningless bullshit. I personally could care less who is dating who in the Hollywood scene. I could care less about the man who is making billions by throwing a ball around. I want to hear news that actually affects me. Because honestly who someone in Hollywood dates doesn’t concern me one bit. I know I am not dating them and for real it is none of my business. Just as they could give two shits about who I am dating. The man with the billions of dollars doesn’t affect me. Not like he is going to give me a cut of his pay. Nope.. Still going to be a broke bitch . Our society is blinded by the stories of others lives. I mean what happened to the way things were when I grew up. Celebrity shit was not paraded around like a Thanksgiving Parade. It was left for a few television shows and gossip papers. Hell I know more about celebrities than I do my neighbors. It is sad that the stories that should be talked about turn out to be small parts of news stories. The fact that things are pushed to the side with not a blink of an eye. I just think it is sad that the important things in this life are not important. When is it going to be about the things that are right in the world? When is it going to be less about glitz and glam and more about life and things that matter? I do not think it will. And it bothers me to think that we live like this..

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Two under voluntary quarantine in Guilford County

I live in Guilford County! Praying for all involved….

GREENSBORO, N.C. — Two people in Guilford County are under voluntary quarantine while county health officials monitor them for symptoms of Ebola. The individuals have not come in contact with other people who have the disease or demonstrated any symptoms of Ebola.

They are being monitored because the federal government mandates the oversight for those who arrive in the United States from Guinea, Liberia and Sierra Leone, County Medical Director Laura Bachmann said Monday.

The news comes a day after state health officials announced that Duke University Hospital had admitted a patient who showed Ebola symptoms. On Monday morning, health officials released results of an Ebola test that showed the patient at Duke did not have Ebola.

The two people whom Guilford County is monitoring are cooperating fully with the voluntary quarantine, Guilford County Public Health Director Merle Green said.

Read more: Greensboro News & Record

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